Sparks

I needed this reminder today. Yesterday I experienced a pretty massive rupture at work and for about 24 hours part of me might’ve been believing some of the judgments and accusations about my Being. And then my higher self gave me a little bitch slap and said “let’s channel the Divine Hustler Girl!” And suddenly I realized “f$ck that!” Just because someone is projecting their shadow self onto me doesn’t mean I have to believe it. When we can’t be with something that is in our own shadow we have a tendency to heap it upon another. We’re all human. We all disappoint others. I will not agree with those assessments. I know who I am. I know my worth. How can I sit with someone else’s poor opinion of me? Realize it’s not mine. And also to understand that we are all just doing our best. A bunch of messy humans bumping into each other all day every day. Go easy on yourself today my friends and go easy on each other. This life is hard and there is never an excuse to be unkind to anyone else. Especially your sweet self. What was I thinking?! Sometimes even when we know better life offers us an opportunity to re-remember again! It’s all about coming home to your Self✨✨
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Some of us have more trauma than others and even if you think you don’t have wounds -if you are a woman and you are raised in a patriarchal culture like we are in the good old USA, than the culture traumatizes us by making us feel like we have to prove ourselves, contort ourselves-our bodies are commodified, some of us may even feel like their bodies do not even belong to them. Whatever the case may be-when we take responsibility for alchemizing those wounds into gifts, that’s where we get our grit. I love humans who know this and use it for fuel to create a super energy rich, meaningful life of service. Tag someone you know who is giving their gifts through their art, their voice or their service. I want to shoutout @paulavalenzuelaart who is creating beauty through her expression as a painter. I love your pieces ! ✨✨
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Guess I’ve always been a ham! I brag 😉 this sweet girl, doing her best. She had just run away from home, moved to Alameda and was lost at sea. Grateful to her . ...

Did you know that your energy state matters when it comes to creating the life you want?! In case you need a reminder here it is. #comehometoyourSelf ...

I’m not sure if this little painting is “finished” but that’s not really the point. The story I was told and am rewriting now 45 years later, is the point. In spite of spending my adult life doing photography, being a potter, a skilled cook, a designer, curator and an entrepreneur- I’ve hesitated to pick up a paint brush. Today is the first day I’ve given myself time, space and permission to put oil paint on a canvas and for that I feel deeply satisfied. I’m thinking it’s about time I own that I am as creative AF! ✨✨
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Self discipline is also about listening when it’s time to rest and being ok with that. This driver culture can sometimes confuse self discipline with self abuse. My default trick to know which energy state I’m in is to ask myself if the activity is bringing me joy or if I am suffering through it, forcing it. If there’s no ease in it then it’s called effort and that is counter to the flow I know brings me the life I desire. It is subtle to detect sometimes but if I lean into it the answer is there. ✨✨
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✨✨art by @pc.koublis the most ethereal, gorgeous photos I’ve seen. You must follow them!
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New post up on my You Tube Channel. Link in bio. It’s kind of hysterical that as I’m posting this I’m in the deepest rupture-feeling burdened because I keep unwittingly doing the emotional labor for my loved ones. And especially in my marriage. Not because I’m asked to, mind you. Because the culture trained me to. It’s so engrained that it happens automatically. How do we change? By noticing our behavior one thought at a time. Self inquiry. Awareness. Disregulation. That is how the brain rewires. ✨✨
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My Type A program runs a story that after my list is checked off THEN I can enjoy and appreciate. But in truth it’s the process, the journey. My favorite parts are the little ah hahs that happen throughout the day. In this moment I realize I am living the life I longed for so many years ago. We need to stop and appreciate that shit! My future self is now asking of me to enjoy the process of becoming her even more. My days around the sun are getting shorter and I’m here to optimize the heck out of every one! How about you? What part of the process are you enjoying the most? ✨✨
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When we’re tapped in, tuned in and turned on we have so much energy to give our gifts! New You Tube video up on my channel today. Link in bio. ...

Some days I start out with low energy and I feel resistant to doing the practices I know will fill my cup and lighten my mental load. Even though I KNOW exercising, praying, meditating, Wim Hoffing will plug me straight into the mothership I resist. But habits can become our lifeline if we choose wisely and use them. Today was one of those days and I am so grateful for the #divinehustlerhabits crew for showing up and holding me accountable. //✨✨
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